If I was on the right side of this argument, why did I have such a feeling of dread inside of me? It finally occurred to me that I really hated the person that I was becoming. Was I so narrow-minded as a person and as a Christian that I was completely unwilling to look at another perspective? Is this the example that I wanted to set for my children? That was the turning point for me. A little humility can go a long way. All of the questions that my husband had presented to me could be seen with a new set of eyes, and there were many questions.
I'm sure that every Christian-turned-atheist has a different reason for leaving the faith, but for me, it all boiled down to the veracity of the Bible. Was it truly the inspired and infallible word of God, as I had been taught? If not, then the foundation of Christianity would crumble away. Although the problems with the Bible are seemingly infinite, for the sake of brevity, I'm listing my top ten reasons for doubting that it is both inspired and infallible. Here goes...
1. Biblical Slavery: Accounts of slavery abound in the Bible. Yes, human ownership was not only allowed, but detailed instructions regarding how hard they could be beaten are provided as well. (Exodus 21:20-21) Did God not have the foresight to know that hundreds of thousands of lives could have been spared had the Bible simply stated DO NOT OWN OTHER HUMAN BEINGS, perhaps in the Ten Commandments?
2. Speaking of the 10 Commandments, how had I missed that there are actually 2 different versions? Exodus 20 details the version that most of us are familiar with, written by the hand of God only to be smashed by Moses shortly threreafter. Luckily, God is willing to make a new set. Exodus 34 gives us this account. The only problem is the two don't exactly match up, especially if you like to boil a young goat in its mother's milk (verse 26). Huh?
3. Polytheism: We all know that the Israelites struggled with polytheism in the Old Testament, but maybe there was a good reason for that. Deuteronomy 32:8-9 implies that Elyon (called Most High in most translations) appointed Yahweh (called Adonai or Lord in varying translations) to be Israel's patron deity. This information is not easily teased out in our more predominant translations, but the implications are shocking. Elyon was the high god of the ancient Canaanite pantheon, while Yahweh was one of his many sons. Thus, Yahweh was not the Most High, rather it was his Canaanite father Elyon.
More reasons soon to come!